Awareness is key to moving forward. Until you know better, it’s impossible to do better. But knowing and doing are two separate understandings. Sometimes they happen simultaneously, but more often they are separate steps in the process of awakening.
I’ve been hit with a wave of awareness recently and, while it’s been a long time getting through my skull, it’s hitting me hard once I’m open to it. How do most “overnight successes” occur? Slowly, then rapidly.
People have been lying to me. Well, maybe not outrightly lying, but making me promises they don’t keep.
I’ve believed them. They’ve given me no reason not to. And I have been disappointed three separate times.
This has been a gradual process, but I’m connecting the dots looking back. After all, that’s the only way to connect the dots: looking backward. Until we’re aware of that, we might overlook the lessons and messages so we can take a new route going forward.
So the dots I’m connecting lead me straight to ME. (This is the part where awareness hurts. Where the truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.)
Where in my life have I lied to someone else? Where have I made a promise I either never intended to keep, or found I couldn’t keep after I made it?
What I’m becoming aware of as I realize I am never a victim of circumstances, but have been gifted awareness to adjust my own sails, is that everything – and I mean EVERYTHING – that seems to happen TO me actually happens FOR me. Everything – and I mean EVERYTHING – is there for my greatest and highest good, and it’s up to me whether I see that or not.
Where have I lied or not kept promises? There are certainly many times, I’m sure. But instead of rehashing and beating myself up over them, I am choosing to FORGIVE myself for whatever I did or didn’t do that would have led me to a higher path. Forgive – GIVE BEFORE – having faith that releasing those stupid chains will allow me to move on to the next message that leads me higher.
Until or unless I’m willing to forgive MYSELF, I will keep getting those messages, lessons, problems, and eventually crises that are just calling for me to wake up.
Where are you holding on to old weights that you can now release? Where are you beating yourself up and that Self is just crying to be freed from that heaviness? You might not even have to figure it out – just choose to let it go.
When the choices are those things, circumstances, or even people who make you feel heavy or those that make you feel light, go for light.
That’s where everything becomes clearer.